Moved =)

This blog shall remain for memory sake..

I need to be enlightened and rejuvenated..
I'm pinning my hopes down for tmr..
Insyallah..

At that point of time..
They may seem like the bad guys..
But then now you realize and learnt..
They are not the bad guy..
You are!

If only i had known earlier..
If only i had been in this course earlier..
Which seemed impossible..
So what if i am always in the teacher's good books..
So what?

Does it really matter?
Everyone's nice.. Every single one of us..
Even if he's a criminal..
Every single one of us has their soft and positive side..

If only I had known earlier..

oh wow..

The past do haunt you back at times yeah?
Thank you for reminding me =)


This encourages me to help those who are always labelled "naughty".
They are not.. There are reasons why certain children act that way..
I didn't know my childhood could teach me so much.

Being in this course opens up my mindset so as to not label children as being "naughty".
But never have I applied and reflected about my past..
About my friends..
When I was a child I was blinded by the so called "ideal behaviours".
Well they do not train us or teach us to further understand why children act this way and that..

Children are active!!
Come to think of it.. It's stupid to be writing down names of children just because they ran at the corridors.. or talk loudly in the hall.. aren't we human? little did I know what I did back then could have a huge impact on other people's childhood..
Just by having that golden badge could destroy other person's childhood.. especially when the person's your friend..

oh wow...
never knew it could turn out this way...

Now that i have realised..
I should do something about this..

I do not want other children to suffer during their childhood and being labelled and stereotyped as "BAD" or "NAUGHTY"..

We have no rights to do that!
Oh wow.. oh wow.. This is such an eye opener for me..

Nah it's ok if u do not understand this entry..

it's just a self regulation thingy..

so yea..

just to make myself think..


Note to self: Stop being defensive when you're in the wrong!
Think before you speak!

Instead of doing my interview questions..
I ended up organizing an outing for my pri school friends..
oh gosh!

I almost wrote..
"Aloha Unitianz!" for the mass message
LOL! padahal tu sec sch..

attention anthonians ur motto still bearning..
bla bla bla bla aku tak paham lirik skola aku..

eh they should try don't forget the lyrics school song version..
lol!
ok i should sleep early..

nak hantar kueh..
nak hantar kueh..
nak hanter kueh..
nak hantar kueh..

I was browsing through my old blog..
So happening..
I was sooo open and it feels like i was so bechok back then.
As for now.. I don't really have the interest to blog so much and so often like I used to..
No wonder there's like a huge differences in the sitemeter.
I used to have at least 30 viewers per day last time..
But it's only 8 per day .. That was the last time I checked the sitemeter..
and i can't really be bothered to go to the website anymore to check.. lol!!!
I am sooooooo not motivated to upload any pics or anything..
oh gosh!

but internet is still so... addictive?

ok bye..

Everyone seems to be writing down the new year resolutions..
And how 2008 have been for them..

My cousin wrote this in he LJ..

"the departure of the loved ones reminded me of the fragillity of life and how simple it is for the Lord to take us and return to Him, anytime that He Wills; Lord of All Worlds He is and the All-Wise He is.. the departure of the loved ones also reminded me on how important it is that we treasure those who are still here, because we will never know when they will leave us. but remember, we too will depart. will we ever see daylight again tomorrow? what have we done so far, so that when we return to Him, we will be able to tell Him that we have done our best regarding what He advised us to do during our time on earth? let's think and reflect about that and do something about it :)"


2008..
The only impactful event i can recall was those 3 days..

So many lessons learnt from just one incident..

I have a few resolutions for both duniawi and ukhrawi..
It's easy to list them down.. But it's not easy to practice it..
I shall and will try my very best..

You know they say.. "Don't be sad that it ended, Be happy that it happened."
And i will carry on reminding myself with this quote..
And I can never be thankful enough to have a father like you..
A father who showered all of his love to my family..
I am proud to have a father like you..
I am honoured to be your daughter..
And i'll never let you down..
I promise..



I'm not good with words and do not have fantastic vocabs to express myself..
Just as long as i have Him to listen to me..
Just as long as i know that He is listening..
That is enough.. Alhamdulillah!

Do you remember your first day of school?
Oh i still do now!
I remembered how eager I was for school days before..
And waking up so early for my first day of school..
But just as soon as I stepped into my class, my mum had to wait outside..
I looked at her and really felt like crying..
The tears were just 1mm away from my eyelids..
wahahah! But then! My kindergarten teacher distracted me..
I don't remember what she did but she started talking to all of us and I totally forgotten about my fear.. And I DIDN"T CRY!!! woohooo!!!
Unlike my 2 other siblings.. They've got a record there!!
Wahahaha!
They cried for weekss...
So cute!
My mum said whenever my brother started crying, the teacher would put a pail in front of him.. Cos he'll start vomiting right after!

My lil sister on the other hand was a lil better.. She kept crying and crying.. And when the teacher called her out to write a particular answer on the board she would stand up.. sobbing and write the answer.. She'll then sit down back and continue crying... hahahha!! so cute righttt!!!!
hahahha!!!

eh but i not bad u noe..
I go to school on my own since K1..
muahahahha!!!
oh don't let me start on my primary one life and my one dollar and water-bottle-squashed-by-the-bus affair..
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!!
my longan girls and iep gang should have known about it..

hahaha..
ok ...


I'm sure you guys can never forget your first day..
And someone's gonna start his first day of school tomorrow!!!

heheheh!
yess my baby's growing up..
growing real well!
sihat wal-afiat!

And he's starting his first day of school tomorrow!
I'm so excited!
And so is he..
I asked my mum..
"Do you think he would cry tmr?"
She said most probably..
But i said NO..


hahah..
oh well..
we'll see..

How bout you?
Do you think Irfan will cry on his first day of school?
Place your votes now!

While hunting for a place to eat we saw Harris bookstore.
Both of us went in automatically without any discussion or hesitation.
Both our eyes gleamed in excitement
"Business!" "Kid's highlight!" We said at the same time.
We crossed each other's path and went to our shelves respectively..

And i just loved today..
It's been a while since we get to you know..
Talk.. Just talk...
About so many interesting stuffs..
My brain was working as fast as my mouth..
Great coordination there..
And the ears did a lot of listening too.. Good job ears!
And the eyes just stared at the way he talks and observing his reactions and expressions..
She realised.. It was still the same.. The sparkle on his eyes when he starts talking about things he love.. The enthusiasm when he talks about things that interest him.. Just like the time you brought me to the art room during leo camp.. Just like a cute little boy talking about how much he had fun playing with his friends.. =D
While the heart.. Can't agree more on how much she loves this man..
So different yet completes all her imperfections.. Hmmm camner nak explain eh?

takperlah!

niwaes!
I like the idea of mimi mixing around with my friends..
It's entertaining too.. At least he can talk to girls..
Too many gay activities in camp!
lol!!!
Well i like the idea cos he knows who my friends are..
And how are they like..
And you know... enjoy their company like I do..
(he invited himself to our class chalet.. buat malu member jer dier ni!"

=)

And i'm glad he get to meet up with his buddies..
I know he misses them..
Enjoy baby!




Dear Ayah..
There is never a day that passes by when I don't think of you..
My friends shared with me about how 2008 has been for them..
Well, I'd rather keep mum..
Or I'll spoil the day by crying and change the whole atmosphere..

Yes.. Time do past by real fast in 2008..
In a few months time it'll be a year since u left..
So the tak percayer..
One thing's for sure..
The rest of the years will never be the same anymore..


I love you and will always do..
Forever and ever..

Till we meet again kay?
Insyallah....

Death...
We can never run away from it..
It'll come to you..
It's just a matter of time..

Isn't it a little too early?

School Blues

"hmmm... i wonder how it'll be like to go to school? Will there be lots of food during snack time? Hmmmmm...."

A Kind of Magic..

I'm sure many had watched this man in action..
Just a couple of days ago..
I was in a dilemma..
Not only a couple days ago.. more of like most of the time undecided and fickle-minded on which age group i would want to teach.. Primary or kindergarten?

And YESSS they are two different things!!!

Just that, that particular night i was really worried sick about signing up for NIE or just be a kindergarten teacher.. Cos in two months time I'm gonna move on to the next phase of life.. *shivers*
lol..

ANYWAY!!
It was midnight and i was hungry. I ate and was browsing through the channels..
And yes I ended up watching David Blaine cos there were no other interesting shows at that point of time.
And after watching the show.. I made up my mind and have got a very clear picture on what I wanna do after graduation..

I wanna be like David Blaine..
Doing magic..
But a different kind of magic..


What impacted me while watching the show were the reactions of those people whom David Blaine stopped.
Their reactions were simply priceless..
Some were really amused and they begin jumping and laughing in excitement after he showed the magic trick.
Some just stared at him for a few seconds which seems like minutes and asked the most predictable question..
"How did you do that?"
Hahahahaha!!!
And David Blaine remained so calm and cool with his crooked smile and his forever looking droopy-eye which makes him look ignorant at times.. lol
But i still felt so proud of him while watching..
To get that kind of reaction..
Imagine how David Blaine really felt at that moment of time despite him looking so cool..

And while watching those priceless reactions..
Something similar crossed my mind..
I've seen these reactions before..
I know how amazing it feels to get these reactions from a group of people...
It made me feel contented every single time I left this group of people for I knew I had made them happy and created a little bit of excitement in their lives.
And yessss! The children!!
I've seen this during attachment!
These exact reactions from David Blaine "passer-bys" were exactly the same like the children..
And it doesn't take much..
Just sincerity and passion..
Really..

And this street magic episode happens to be also a dialogue session with guest star Leonardo DiCarprio (I dunno how to spell..)
Their conversation really hit me and wow! I can so relate it to this field..

One of the conversation went like this..

Leonardo: When u did magic to me right in front of my face - one on one, I couldn't help but to be interested again. So why are you now doing a TV special. I'm curious. How do you think your stuff is going to translate so different then what's been done before?

David Blaine: I don't work with fancy props, there's no beautiful show girl, there's no elaborate sets, I work with people. It makes the magic spontaneous. It looks like everybody is trying to the next biggest special efect i mean it gets bigger and bigger i mean when's it going to stop?

Exactly! i so feel you david! hahahaha!
You just do something sincere and simple..
Storytelling, singing or dancing with them..
And they will be so hysterical and amused..
Well of course you'll have to be hyped-up as well..

Just being animated and making a conversation with them can already make their day..
And the plus point for this field is that..
It's a two way thing..
Not only YOU who'll be amusing the children..
THE CHILDREN THEMSELVES!! have got their own power to really make us react like the passerbys of the street magic..
Really..
And they can do that with just a sentence..
Power right?
JUST A SENTENCE!

You know they say..
kids say the darnest thing..

hehehe!

And there was another conversation when Leonardo said something like..

"There were times when you(David Blaine) approach a group of people who are not really interacting with each other.. But after you(David Blaine) show your magic to these group of people, they suddenly start talking to each other happily about the magic and it goes on"

AND this have been clearly proved in our IEP action research project right hajar, hui'e, gurmeet and sher???
It was hard to get this particular children to discuss with each other but with the presence of the teacher.. Who is like a medium to these children.. Children get to indirectly discuss and negotiate their ideas with their friends and many brilliant ideas are being shared!
AMAYYYYYYZING!!!

And lastly..
David Blaine said..
Magic is an art...

And I say..
Teaching young children is an art..
TEACHING IS AN ART!!!

You know.. Sometimes in secondary school, you have friends who always get A in Amaths and stuffs.. And when u approach one of them for help.. At times you do not understand what the person is explaining.. And that person has got a hard time explaining and teaching you..
You see... Understanding a particular concept is one thing.. Teaching and having to pass the concept across to someone is ANOTHER thing..

And i'm sure many of my friends who are in this field are a little pissed by those people who commented things like..


"HAH??? YOU'RE IN EARLY CHILDHOOD!!!????
*eyes and mouth wide open like as if we murdered someone*

"AIYAH!! Teach kids so easy laaa!"

"Teach ABC, 123, chicken mc nugget la!"

"You mean you have final year project??? ur fyp is to make babies is it?"

And yes we wished that we could just throw these people in a classroom without any other teachers and see if they can survive the day or not..

It's not just simply teaching ABC 123..
We're developing a young mind..
And it's more than ABC 123..
You're teaching children moral values..
self help skills..
Life skills..
Skills which we will be accompanying them for all their lives...
We're developing them as a whole..
Physically, intellectually, cognitively, socially and emotionally..
Children begin to learn about friendship from as young as 3 or 4..
Children being to solve problems since they were infant..
Children learn decision making in their preschool times..
And there are so many more skills children will learn and we have to make sure that there is someone to guide them.. To facilitate them..
To make sure that we get to stretch them to their highest potential..

Yes it is our responsibility as an Early Childhood Educator..
It sure is a lot of responsibilities..
But you know what?
It is a blessing to be working with this field..
To be working with children..



And thank you Allah for moving me to choose this course as my first choice..
And I still leave everything to Him..
Kita merancang Tuhan menentukan!


I'm sure by the end of this post you would have known my decision..
To embark my journey in a kindergarten as my first stepping stone..
And Early Childhood is a VERY broad field...
You can be a storyteller..
A drama teacher..
Set up your own drama centre..
Design children's toys..
Be a thrapists - Art therapy, play therapy

And the list goes on..

So my dear friends who are in this course and still undecided so as to where to go after graduation..
FEAR NOT!!!!
We have got plenty to choose from..
REALLYYY!!!
Just search deep in your heart and you'll know what you really want in life..

Or...


Watch David Blaine Street Magic..


hehehhee!

This is one of the longest post i've ever written..
I think..

=D

BE A MAN!

I am an active facebooker..
Oh no..
This is not good...
*perpires and panics*
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!



lol!

Anyway..
I just had a shopping spree.. OK maybe "spree" ain't the exact words...
Just that i went shopping to refill my yearly supplies..
A Bag.. and pants..
Hahahahaha!
I think i had derived to a conclusion that i only shop once a year?
An understatement? lol! WO bu che tao!

Well.. Every shopping trip.. Be it for personal or school projects..
I try my very best to.. BE A MAN! (with russell peters impersonation of chinese accent)
Well that is.. To get the stuff you really need and not stop by looking at other stuffs.
Nyehahaha!
Even when with Hazmi.. I kept telling him.. "BE A MAN!"
Well.. if you were to go shopping with Hazmi..
He likes to stop by at certain shops and just look around..
Places like daiso.. I get very restless when i go to places like this especially when i do not need anything from the place itself.. loL! or maybe.. just maybe.. I'm plain lazy to walk around..

And well yesterday i stopped myself from getting distracted from all the beautiful clothes..
I tried to BE A MAN and get the things I really need.
And yes! i didn't buy any extra clothes.. except for one piece.. that is before i told myself to BE A MAN!

hahahhaah!

ok just BE A MAN at that area.. not at other stuffs.. and I'll do just fine..
eyyy..
i dun enjoy shopping..
Maybe NOT YET!
Wait till i have my own Moolahs!
hehehe...

As for now.. most of moolahs goes to fooodddddd!!!

Okie dokie!
so ppl..

BE A MAN!

ok stop it.. i'm getting irritated with myself.. lol!

PS: I'm not saying you have to BE A MAN during shopping trip all the time.. Well, one thing's for sure.. i'm losing out from all those pretty materials.. ehehe.. but i don't mind.. cos i think diff ppl has diff personalities mah.. as for myself.. i can live with just one shoe.. one bag the whole year.. that's why i invest in a lil more expensive shoe and bag.. above 50 bucks but below 70.. but it's always good to have extras you noe.. cos the shoe i have doesn't go with formal events.. so yea.. pinjam mak lor! hehehehehe!

Quick update

Right before we left for our "holiday"..
It awas my turn to be sweet..
LOL ok everybody.. you can roll your eyes..
OK niwaes..
Early in the morning at eight oclock..
farhana and hami go for a walk..
LOL!

at around eight plus..
I drove over to mimiman's place..
Since he had surprised me..
And since it is OUR anni.. not MY bday..
I shouldn't be selfish you noe..
hahhaha!

ok ok..

so there's the man..
blom mandi blom gosok gigi..
chey!
opening the gift..
Thank you hajar for helping a lot!!!!!
Sesiaper jadi mataair hajar..
Sungguh bertuah!!!
chey cheyyy!!!

and the "holiday"
was..
kinda stressful..
Prolly due to the reason that i wasn't done with SOP..
LOL!
So hati tak tenteram..
And nope..
I didn't get to swim or shop..
sedihkan!
but takperrrrr...
hehehehe!

Well..
It was still great to meet up with them and all so happy..
kan bagus?



and yesterday was awesome eh?
like finally..
Thanks u so much nor for organizing!
weeee!

The reunion of anthonian ladies cum nadd's bday..









It was AWESOME!
Reminiscing the past and laughing about the silly stuffs we did back then!
OH GOSH!
It was a short yet sweet outing..
Well..
Just 3 words to sum up..
I WANT MOREEEEE!!!!!!!

Insyallah..

oh and...
i forgot where i parked my car after the dinner..
=/



okie! i gtg actuallyyy...
oh yea..
tmr's the last day of school!
den the break..
which we will spend on doing our assignments!
weeee!!!


okie till den!!
toodless!




I call that high self esteem?
LOL!

I'll update real soon kay?
PROMISE!!!

I'm feeling contented too..
Seeing my beloved family and friends happy..
I really couldn't ask for more...

Yey!
Alhamdulillah..

It eases me to see everyone happy..
Seriously...

All thanks to Allah!

:)

farhana oh farhana = happiness oh happines

teeheee!
prolly that's y i feel at ease when ppl are happy..
It goes with the meaning of my name..
coool!!!!!

3 days 2 nights escapade?

oh wow..
the amazing stuff assignments can make you do...
it makes you forget about food and sleep..
oh gosh.. i literally forgotten that i have not eaten my lunch or dinner..
and i just do my stuffs till one or two am.. and to me that is really late..
prolly i should catch up on food and sleep..
that explains the light headednesss i encountered this morning.. sigh...


anihoooossss!!
no time to sigh....

I am packing my bag now..
I'll be away for 3 days and 2 nights..
WOOHOOOO!!!!
It feels like i am going for holiday..
But I'll still be in Singapore leh..

I'll be away with beloved aunts uncles cousins nephew..
NEPHEW!!! OH GOSH! ASYRAF! I CAN'T WAIT!!
but puan saviola won't be there? =((((((((((((((
I hope u'll surprise me!!! hehehe...

things to do on the 3 days 2 nights getaway:
1.) Swim
2.) Shop
3.) Sleep
4.) Eat
5.) Laugh
6.) Shop
7.) Sleep
8.) Swim

And the list goes on! LOL!!!
UNFORUNATELY.. I'll have to bring my laptop along.. To complete my beloved assignments...
But oh well i might as well complete everything tonight yes??
I'm done with letter writing.
Done with MEL assignments
Halfway through SOP..
And VOiLA!

wow! this short "escapade" really motivate me to complete my stuff...
nyehahahaha!!!

And yey! bugis with hajay was so fun and funny!!!
DUh.. Hajar mah..
oh hajar shared a tip about love..
Shesaid love is about accepting each other's flaws and said that love is not I kentot you lari kinda thing.. It should be I kentot u sedut thing.. WAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!! sorry ah.. i really find that funny laaaaaa!!!!!!! Cos it came so spontaneously since we were talking about something embarassing.. which is farting.... lol!!! and tell me who would sing dangdut under the rain? hahhahahahahaha!!! and who would accompany you in the toilet and entertain you with jiwang songss??? hahahhaha!!!!
n yesterday..
I was suppose to follow her tawaf around bugis street to buy her shoe..
we did it for a while and she found her shoe...
But she ended up following me around bugis junction for like really long..
And i think she's like my gift and love advisor yes?
oh and my vehicle commander tooo.. ok not really helpful in that area..
cos she would say.. "hah!!? i dunoooooooooo about maps streets" lol!!!!
u should look at her when she tried to read maps... comel!
hahahahhaha!!!
but it's really sweet of her to try to keep herself awake to accompany me.. and make me laugh and tell me stuffs abt sheila majid.. chey!
so i take my words back.. she is indeed very useful vehicle commander!!! nyehahaha!
and hajar.. i think if u keep sitting in my car eventually u'll get to read maps yes??? i teach u kay? heheheheheh!!!

oh and tmr's the day!
can't wait can't wait!!
weeee!!!!!

bon voyage ppl!
ni feeling2 nak gi overseas sey
padahal pat singapore jer..

nyehahaha!


adios!!
Happy holidays ppl!
muacks!!

A lot like love..

For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it.
For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it.
For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it."

-Ivan Panin

Happy 4th year to one of the most sweetest couple i've ever known!
May Allah bless your relationship till eternity! InsyaAllah, Amin!
I've always love this photo of them..
Damn sweeet uh!


so happy sehhh see couples celebrating their anniversaries and all..
haiks.
when's mine uh? hahahaha!

Thank you Hajar!!!
You sweeter lor!!!
Yours 10 years anniversary right?
teeheee!!!!

Oh wow...

03.13.08 was indeed a memorable experience for me..
After four years..
You're still showering and pampering me with your love..
I couldn't ask for more..
Yes?

Baby..
You're the bestest thing that could ever happen in my life..

Well obviously i didn't know you took off on that day..
It was so funny!!!

Before NAFA, i was a lil off the mood.. Feeling kinda low actually...
Well firstly cos the tot of not being able to meet you that day was really saddening. LOL! I'm kental and emo like that..
Secondly, Hajar gave me false hope when she said she going for NAFA and showed me a shoe bag.. padahal itu hui zhen nyer! grrrr...
Thirdly, soon i found out she lied and both she and kak rynn not going.. sadded luh..
Lastly.. to add salt to the wound.. they left me alone on the 4th floor.. ahahahhaha!!!
i went searching for them at both toilets..

den hajar told me something like..
"u're so gonna regret it lor!"
i was thinking.. wa! are u going to blog about me? hahahha!

So i just went for NAFA..
and this gf instinct tells me that he is going to come out of camp..
i just have this instincts..
ok maybe it's not instincts..
it's called hope!
wakakkakaa!

fast forward..
After NAFA, i went to the car to get my clothes and towel and guess what i saw?







aper keheh nyer bunga bunga ros pat kereta aku ni?
lol!
I was so suspicious..
I began looking around to the culprit..
hahhaha!
so cute right!
u imagine la! only my car have got petals or roses..
on that parking lot has petals of flowers..
so cute right..
u wanna noe something..
at the back of my mind..
i was also thinking..
eh skali cik pon nyer keje tak?

until i saw the culprit trying to run away and avoid me..
ahahhaha!
i have eagle eyes k?
and wow!!!
it was none other than mimiman..
SO SWEETTTTT TAU TAKK YOU!!!!

gosh..

AND!!
GUESS WHAT???
He was there looking at me for my 2.4 run..
-.-"
paiseh la sey!
at least when he run beside me..
he dun get to see my full view..
but if he observe from far..
he can see the way i run..
lol!

Okay...
so after bath and thankfully i brought a change of clothes..
Cos i was hoping that he'd get nites out..

and another surprise awaits me...



I had to guess the next destination..

"Dear Love,

Through up and down you have followed
Through thick and thin we have gone
As we celebrate our sacred date
I'll take you through the clouds for a date

Love is like a huge-huge wheel
You start from below and you go-go-go
UP... and DOWN... UP... and DOWN...

Now spray yourself with the body mist
And lose yourself in the moment of bliss

Yours truly
Hazmi"

weeee!!!
I'm sure you guys can guess the destination..
Well ppl said it's a boring half an hour ride.
I thought it was one of the most interesting and eye catching journey..
I can just stare at Singapore skyline for the whole night
and 30 mins is definitely not enough..
We captured and snapped really interesting stuffs.. about ourselves..
lol!!!!

Well the whole journey was short and sweet..
Loved it..

niwaes..
before makinf my way there..
i messaged ibu telling her i'll be late due to a special ocassion.
And she asked "What ocassion is that? May i know?"
Me:Me and hazmi's four years of freindship..

And guess what she replied?

"Ia ke? Congrat jgn lupa solat and jaga diri u all baik2. jgn mencontengkan arang d muka org tua. n bykkan bersabar dan saling bermaafan jika diantara yang bersalah.. Smoga Allah bersama org yg bersabar. Tk care both of u..
kalau ada jodoh go head jangan gostand"

AMin!

LOL!!!!!

So cute right?
Thank you mummy!
I still love u the most!
nyehahaha!

After 19 years, i baru found out that my mum is scared of heights..
oh gosh!

lol!

ok...
actually this entry ends abruptly here..
lol!
i have yet to prepare materials for post test..

and yesss...
thank you to my cute friends for planning with him!
i read all the messages..
so cute lahh korang!!!!

and thank u hazmi for being there for me every single time..
For all the many sacrifices you made..
For making me view the world in a bigger perspective...
For regulating my mind..
For teaching me to be independent and controlling my anger management..
For making me a better person..
For sharing ur life with me..
For being a part of me..

=)

i want the whole world to know..
i want to shout it out loud..
that "this" is where i know i belong...

"this" refers to his heart..
ahhaha..
yes yes i noe i noe..
kental kental..
pakai lagu singapore..
lol!!

BLOODY TWO FACED HYPROCRITE!

i hate being nice..
oh yes...
oh yes..
It really DOESN'T freakin pay to be nice!
TWO FACED IRRITATING BUGGER!
Wa! Kau lah manusia yang paling baik di dunia ini yang tak pernah menipu dan menyakiti hati orang.
Hak Puih!

kadang2 aku reflect balik..
asal aku nak jaga hati orang.. nak baik ngan jorang padahal2 jorang tak appreciate kitorang dan tak nak jaga perasaan org..
Serious sak.. pasal bender gini.. kdg2 buat aku tak sabar nak graduate..
klau aku ader power leh lesapkan kau dari kehidupan aku..
dah lamer dah aku buat gitu...

serious sak..
aku tak paham asal aku baik pat org..
menyampah sey org cam gini..
serious aku tak pernah blog gini..
serious aku tak penah frust cam gini..
cam first time nak cekik manusia tu..

yang bagitau pon bukan kau! member kau jugak.. jgn nak eksyen step righteous kay?

ah okay thanks.

Honestly..
I am contemplating so as to watch twilight with mimiman or with yann and atikah..
Cos kan kalau watch with hazmi nanti takleh tunjuk my excitement.. But i want him to watch the show.. But kan klau watch with yann and atikah, i can like sooooooo relate back to the book with them and discuss on how gorgeous the Cullens are and how sweet the story is.. how amayzing the movie is etc etc etc.... It's better to watch with someone who appreciates the book and movie rite? yes yes yes? I'm not saying mimi doesn't appreciate the movie.. alaaaa susah la nak explain!

No more magic fingers

Seriously! I've lost my ability to blog.. Yes?
Oh miannnn!!!

Selamat datang ke gerai Azlee..

Irfan nyanyi.. "Pak Mat dtg ke gerai Azlee.."

lol!

pak mat tempeh dilanggar motokar!

What Kak na does in school..

Kak na surfs in school

Kak na sells keropok in school

Kak na talks a lot in school..

Kak Na has an old friend in sch..

One thing's for sure..





Kak Na's having so much fun with the girls in school..
YES?

When KakNa's at home..
Kak na likes to amuse herself..



OMG!!!!!
HAZMI LOOKS REALLY GOOD LA BACK THEN IN THE 50'S TO THE 90'S!!!!!!


1956 1968




1976 1982


1980

AND MY FAVOURITE ERA!!!


1984


1986


1988 (MY PERSONAL FAOUVRITEEE!!! Gorgeous rite??!!!)


1990


1994

SO.. Which one's your favourite?

SO COOOLLLL!!!!!!!

Try it yourself!

http://www.yearbookyourself.com/

Dear ayah...

I am truly overwhelmed by your sacrifices... Even though it has been 8 months since you've left, you're still contributing to our family. Actually Allah was the one who gave us all this. Allah made you strong and hardworking... Your hardwork paid off for you still want us to be happy even after you're gone... It'll be close to a year..

Dear ayah,
We have received another round of claims from the insurance company..
Well to others it may seem not much.. But to me... It's more than enough... I'm truly grateful.. As soon as i received the cheque.. All i wanted to do was cry... But everyone was in the room.. So i just tahan..

Sometimes i wonder.. What's the use of having all these money when you're not around? What's the use of spending the money to have fun when i can never hear your laughter anymore. What's the use of buying presents with the money when i can't see you smile anymore.. What's the use of having money if i were to use it when i get married one day.. You won't be there to be with me on my happy day...
Ayah.. No matter how much money we all get.. All these can never ever value up to the care and love you gave us.. These money will eventually be used up and gone one day.. But your love, your sacrifices, my memories.. our memories together will never ever be gone..... I promise you that ayah...

Dear Ayah...
21st Nov.. An unforgettable day for our family every year..
We will never fail to surprise ibu and bring her out..
But on the 21st Nov 2008.. The day ibu can never forget.. The first time celebrating her birthday without the man she loves the most.. The man who has been her companion for more than 20 years.. The man whom she have always been praying for. When ibu was younger, she didn't really get to experience how it was like to feel love from a father. Well seldom.. So she prayed and hoped that she will have the most loving and caring husband.. And that's when she met you ayah.. Ibu told me how you two met and I couldn't stop smiling imagining the ibu and you.. LOL! But oh well, ibu's patince and iman was tested when you left us...

Alhamdullillah..

Ibu is strong..

Ayah.. Ibu is really strong..







Gosh..
I'm so sorry.. I just run out of words to continue this... I'm just overwhelmed thinking about my mum....

But oh Lord, I pray for ibu's health and happiness in both the earth and hereafter..
Oh Lord.. I pray for ibu's strength and myself to always be there for her..
Oh Lord.. I really really pray and hope that both ayah and ibu will meet in paradise and be happy again once more.. Allah.. Sesungguhnya.. Engkaulah Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Mengetahui segala-galanya.......

Ya Allah..
Ampunkanlah segala dosa ayah Ya Allah..
Ampunilah segala salah silap ayahku Ya Allah.. sesungguhnya kami ini semua hanyalah hambamu yang kecil yang tidak boleh lari dari kesilapan..
Ya Allah..
Ayah adalah seorang suami yang mithali Ya Allah..
Dan Ayah yang sangat bertanggungjawab..
Dia telah banyak berkorban demi isteri dan anak2 tersayang..
Ya Allah sesungguhNya bekerja untuk menampung keluarga adalah ibadah Ya Allah..
Ya Allah.. Cucurilah roh ayah ya Allah.. Ya Allah.. Lepaskanlah ayah dari azab kubur... Luaskanlah kuburnya Ya Allah.. Masukanlah dia ke dalam syurga beserta orang2 yang beriman... Ya Allah.. Semoga aku tidak akan lupa segala jasa ayah dan dapat menepati janji2ku padanya Ya Allah...

Al-fatihah.....

Amin yarabbal Alamin...

I'm sure all the 177 ladies and men in ECH are overwhelmed by assignments and implementations for IEP this week. And yes.. it's is time consuming, brain wrecking and can drain you out physically and mentally.

And yes.. Sometimes having a break is essential for myself personally. So i was thinking of some ways to actually occupy myself with something for my so-called break.. And out of a sudden my childhood heartthrobs appeared in my mind.. Mcm fated gitukan.. lol!

Who else righttt....
Haiz... I also wan2 be in this pic and hug hug hug them..
NYEHAHAHHA!!
cheyyY!!!!

Ok ok...
WHat i actually did was..
To go youtube and typed "Backstreet Boys"

And guess what i found instead?



LOL!!!!
Mukaaa selamber giler..
Mcm nak kene smack!
hahahhahahahahhahahaha!!
My fav part: 1min 21sec.. When they guy sang "Yes I knowwwwwwwww" ngan mulut2 dier skali.. hahaha! like imitating AJ.. hahahhaha!!! He's so funny.. Before that part.. He even lip synced the echo!!! lol! power! very detailed!!
But got one part.. both didn't sing.. i tink cos rite..
the left guy tot his friend will be singing and the friend tot the other way. It's at the 40 seconds.. hahahhaha!
I also like the way they made it so natural but it's actually choreographed and planned nicely the way they move and alll..
SUPER HILARIOUS!
I swear i havent laughed like this while watching you tube.. k besides the first time i watched human tetris..

Serious sia.. I can make field notes on this video siaaa! with interpretations! lol! on their emotional.. cognitive and physical(their movements) lol!!!!

And then i came across another two funny men...

Tak leh angsss!
org tgh masak sia pat blakang!!
LOL!!!!!!
funniest and fav part to me was from 48sec to 1min.
lol! so cute!!!!!

But oh well.. My break was served well...
Entertaining..

Ahhh..
I feel better u noe..
A lil light.. Seriously..

And i feel so calmed and awwwwww...
when watching this following video..



The song above was perfect la!!!
A perfect combination... WOW!

Can you like replace Shania with me..
Then I can be with my boys..
Oh gosh..
Oh.. for my birthday..
You can wrap all of them in a box and send it to my doorstep..
LOL!!!!!!!




Wait long long..
Dun hafta wait..
it'll never happen..
nyehahahhaa!

I remembered the time when i bought black and blue cd.. I was still in primary school..I had to sneak and smuggle it in my house like a drug.. And my mum was the custom of course.
Everything went smoothly until my pangsey, buai, saboh-king brother told my mum..
INI MAMAT! I took so much time to plan and save money to buy my black and blue cassette.. And he has to spoil it all.
LOL!
My mum didn't like me adoring them so much..
Cos i bought magazines which have them inside..
And i rmbered having to spend for a long time viewing all the magazines with them in it at this particular mama shop together with Sera..
Then we planned like if they come Singapore, then they can stay in our house.. Sera take 2 of them.. then i take another 3..
hahahhahahahhahaha!!!!

So kental right?
But still cute!
hahahhahaha!

those were the days....
=)

ok..
i'm really tired..
My real planned break is to sleep..
nyehahahhaha!
nitey!!


PS: nick sengau.. i DON"T LIKE! i dun understand asal ramai sgt org suker dier.. mcm semua matured.. den dier sorang cam bdk2.. chey!!!! oh n yes extra sengau! i tak suka! i tak suka!

LOL!

I stillll LIKE FAT BOYS AND I CANNOT LIE!!!

Though this picture looks stressful due to our what Miera would say, "muka bengot",
i still find tranquility in this photo.
Cos it makes me smile and laugh every single time i look at this photo
:D

you make it easy

plain white t's - 1234

1 2,1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)




EH! SALAH!!!



ah yessss!
i love you..

Spot the girl who is not paying attention..

She needs a spank!
Nyehahahaha!

Musim High School Musical

I read one of my classmate's blog ..
and i quote from her..


"Let's not fret but make the best out of this!
Afterall, it's OUR SENIOR YEAR!"

Power or what?
WE ARE in our senior year..
Graduation! graduation!
in like what? 3 months??
gosh!!!

How time flies..
And then..
Everyone's off to start off a career, or pursue in a Degree, or go NIE OR be housewife.. chey!

Dear ayah,
earlier on hajar was asking me.. "So how're you coping?"
I told her that my life had to go on and i'm coping well i guess..
And then when I came home, ibu asked abg if he wants give yourbaju to his friends..
Den my heart sank..
Can we don't give away any of your clothes..
Can i just keep everything in my wardrobe?

Am i still coping well as I tot I were?

I find it weird not having to see you and listen to your voice and talking to you and laughing with you and getting scolded by you and patting your stomach and smelling your presence... for the longest period in my entire life...

I missed you...

"Da baik batuk? n jgn lupa makan... Take care luv u"

Nothing beats a mother's love...

I love you too...

Oooo..
So much hatred!
So much EEEEEviLLLL!
So Harsh words!!
Well.. THat's Setan for us.. But sometimes we portray their characteristics don't you think so?
Anger.. Hatred.. Envy.. Vengeance... "A piece of me" as quoted by the setan..
There's 11 more adverts on these SETANSSSS... DO check it out yeaa????
A reminder for all of us..





Ahhhhh...
Finally after 2 weeks of absence from madrasah.. I was finally able to make it yesterday!
Hooray!
OH yes! It was rejuvenating! Having to once again learn something I do not know about my religion.. The feeling's just aMAYzing! Subhanallah! I think it's because of my ustazah la.. Cos she rawks my chair when i am about to fall asleep.. chey..
oh and we viewed this debate on "Was Jesus Crucified?"
Debated by Sheikh Ahmad Deedat(Thank you 'arifah) and Bishop General Wakesfield. We have yet to complete the second disc. Very interesting.!!
But this CD is kinda hard to be found in Singapore.. Cos of it's topic eh agaknyer..
But Ustazah found the CD at Batam i think.. Malaysia pon ader.. ehehehe..
So ok.. Of course as a Muslim.. I know what happened to Nabi Isa and still believe in the Quran and who exactly was crucified. And they talked about the Bible and the stories of previous prophets. Very enriching debate. I loike!

Ok..
I am suppose to complete my AYC presentation..
I'm in the school library by the way..
There's this girl beside me.. She's from another class..
And she's the type who is super duper hardworking..
I think ah..
loL!
Cos i feel small and tak sepandai when i'm sitting beside her now..
hahahha!!!

susah nak explain..
ok takper..

i do my work now..

ok take care beloved peeps!

=D

achievement: I drove to bugis! weeee!!! Cos dulu,ayah slalu tak suka drive pat bugis sebab terlalu ramai org and tempat dier terbelit2.. hehehe.. i also tot so until i drove there yesterday.. not so terok.. weeeee...!and irfan main itu fountain.. everyone seems to have enjoyed from watching him...

lol!

Hazmi..


Thank you...


From the bottom of my heart....




I don't care what they say..
But i'm in love with you..

final sem???

Aloha!
Just wanna inform Internet Explorer Users..
This is how my blog is suppose to look like...

Hehehe..
I've viewed my blog using IE..
Quite cool uh?
lol! but it was never intended to be that way..
it's suppose to be like above.. =)


Anyway..
I've been home for the past 2 days..
And i've been viewing all the pictures from my laptop.
Such an entertainment..
I can just laugh and laugh viewing all those photos..
Sigh....

How time flies..
I'm in year 3???
oh wait.. my final sem????

gosh....

oh yes...
let me warn you..
today's entry is gonna filled with quite a number of pictures from the time i entered poly till now..
It was so much fun when i looked back at these pictures...

alright..
I should let the pictures do the talking..
with some captions..

hehehhe..

intoducing us..
2 years ago..

when we were still in year one...

nyehahahha!
i think we kept laughing and laughing and some librarian shhh-ed us..
i think..


lol!!!! kak rynn tgh zaman healthwise.. hehehehhe!!

hahhahha! aper steam sia step emo satu2.. takleh angsss! wahhahaha
wa bobual cam minah ah! lagi takleh angsss!

oh.. and those pouting pouting moments..
inspired by who else..


and those times when we were too free...

Jumpy momentos...

"ok listen to titer siti"
ready for take..
on your mark..

get set...
JUMP!

Jatuh!

JUMP!

Jatuh!

And JUMP!

constipated but still cosy..

the pic above was taken at vivo not sungei seremban.. sorry if the picture is a bit misleading..
chey!
serene calls it yoga!

who could forget the 3 mentel "mummies"

And the surprise surprise!

nehz passport photo...

in lecturesss... =)))

golden years... hehehhe!

when we turned into stickman..

hajar did join NP string...

My buddy back then..

And the divas performance..

The "MEN"

hajar ngah work out!

kutu pat rambut hijauku..

Ni time aku giler and feeling2 PIMP..




and last but not least..
when the zzzzz monster conquers all...
hehhe..


ok daaaa